My wife and I have been married for 7 yrs. Our sex life is good, our marriage is good. We’re both in our mid 30’s and are pretty open when sharing what excites us in bed, but, for the last few months I’ve been fantasizing about gang banging, with her being the only woman. I haven’t mentioned it to her, only because I’m afraid of what her reaction to that might be. We share kinky things, but this might be over the top. Have I become too perverted?
The More the Merrier
Have you become perverted? “No.” Are you human? “Yes.” I think the key word you mentioned in your question to me was, “fantasizing.” There’s a big difference between what flows through your mind for excitement and what is actually reality.
Sex is like everything else that consumes our lives, we’re always looking that bit of something extra to put it over the top. For instance, something as mundane as cooking dinner, a recipe that’s been made maybe dozens of times, we find ourselves adding a new ingredient, just to spice it up a bit, add a little difference so you don’t take a bite thinking, “Damn, this is a repeat of the exact same thing we had two weeks ago.”
When we first discover sex during puberty, the only thing needed to achieve an orgasm is a secluded place where our parents won’t find us, while we look through the underwear section of a catalog. But, as we get older, what was once new, becomes old and it takes a bit more to really put the razzle into our dirty dazzle. Sometimes, when masturbating, the thought of a woman you passed on the street might be enough to manifest a scenario in your mind that will have you oozing sperm over your helping hand…but, then there may be a time when you suddenly have to incorporate that same lovely woman into something like a BDSM scene, where she’s shackled to an old dungeon type brick wall, totally naked, with clothespins on her labia and someone torturing her with a vibrator set on high speed. The mind is truly a magnificent organ.
If you truly have no intentions of wanting to slip into the role of being either a participant or maybe even a cuckold husband, and it’s merely fetish thoughts to put you over the edge, then there’s no cause to keep it a sexual secret. Tell your wife first and foremost that it’s only a role play type of bedroom aphrodisiac, and who knows, she may entertain the thought and add her own spin to things, talking dirty in your ear while you assume a missionary position, telling you of all the shafts she’s servicing while you watch and jack off.
Variety is the spice of life and fantasy can be the spice for sex. With a mutual understanding and an open mind, there are no limits to lust.